Dear Wounded Ego,
BS’D
Shalom!
Let's get raw & tender,
I offer something I have long withheld—a permission, a release, a breath that’s been hidden for far too long. I see you, the clenched tight fist around the pain, an armor against the heartbreaks, betrayals, and the echoes of those who have walked away & left. The past, old scars, the grief—they’ve lingered, haven’t they? Like shadows that refuse to fade, they’ve stayed with you, entwined with your every thought, every reaction, every wound. I assume after some time it gets a bit cozy in the dark.
Let’s do something different, let’s turn the light on or at least reveal what’s beyond the veil. To demystify the shadow is to name them, face them, and see them for what they truly are.
The inner coping nihilist may jump in—you may say, like any good Torah Jew, like the words of Shlomo Hamelech in Kohelet 1:3: “What advantage is there for man in all his toil that he toils under the sun in this world?” מַה־יִּתְר֖וֹן לָֽאָדָ֑ם בְּכׇ֨ל־עֲמָל֔וֹ שֶֽׁיַּעֲמֹ֖ל תַּ֥חַת הַשָּֽׁמֶשׁ
Rav Steinsaltz explains, “Many events transpire here, but none of them is significant. Moreover, even when a matter of significance transpires, or a valuable item is discovered, it soon vanishes without a trace. At times, the one responsible for the event or the discovery ultimately realizes its futility himself, while at other times only future generations will arrive at that realization.”
Allow yourself to forgive those who have left you, who have hurt you, who have divorced themselves from your life.
Because you deserve peace, and I am ready to contribute to it.
This is your invitation, your prayer to consolation.
This is my gift, to be a present to you, to remind you of what needs to be done.
To let go, to release the burden, to heal.
Shine a light on these parts of you, not to judge them, but to understand them, to integrate them, to bring them into balance.
And in that balance, find the space to breathe, to live, to love without fear. You are more than your shadows, more than your wounds.
You are whole. You are enough. You are ready to move forward. You are ready to be consoled, with deep compassion and love.
Nachamu,
Your Inner Critic
P.S. Trust is a journey, not a destination. Be patient, dear ones.
P.P.S. Healing and self-discovery continues. If you feel the call to deepen this work, to truly step into the light of your own being, I invite you to join us at the next Hineini Retreat. It’s a sacred space where these shadows can be fully explored, embraced, and transformed. Come, be a part of a community that supports you in this dance of reclamation and renewal. You deserve it.